round0 starts today. just added the 6 modules. i suspect i may not be able to get the bahasa module. bidding only starts in round 2c, by then it'll be difficult to add other modules. this is so darn confusing... i hope it doesn't exceed 600 points... i've only got 844, how to??? man this is bad... why have i got so little points in my general account!?!??! so much more in my programme account... if only i could transfer it to my general account... then i need not worry about all that. i'm going to drop my minor. i have decided to. just that they have yet to update it for me. i hope i can get to take LAB1201 without any problems. i'm so worried... this is all so troublesome. papa's coming today via batam. i'm worried about him taking the ferry. but there are so many things to worry about. like he said, if disaster were to strike, it can be anywhere. i just hope he'll arrive here safely. plus, dad's not feeling well. some curious sharp pain on his left, might be the uretha. i'm so worried about that too. i dunno... i hope it's nothing serious. he's comin over to see the doctor here. i think i want to make time to go with him. but i dunno if i can. i dunno... my mind is just floating with all sorts of worry and concerns... i can't think properly. i hope i'm making the right decision for my modules and studies. i'm going to take honours. i hope i can raise my cap above 4.5. it's been sliding down ever since year 2. i'm so worried about that too... oh yah i nearly forgot my worry on that matter. scattered thoughts... scattered worries... i'm so confused... there are so many inportant things in life. with nothing beating the importance of my family. are little things like *me* actually important? i'm blabbing nonsense... but this is really what's going on in my head right now... not making sense, no doubt. american idol will be starting again in april i think. oh well... i think i may have to swear off all that tv. my resolution: work really hard this sem and raise my cap up. i must do it. i can do it. it doesn't have to be a new year resolution. that's just an excuse. determination need not occur only on that occasion. i have decided. i will put in whatever effort i can afford to raise my cap. i will draw up a timetable and stick to it. i can and i shall. i feel much better now. posted by Yee 1:48 PM . . .
