meaning / significance of blogging? haha, to me it's just an outlet for frustration, or an online database. an subconsciously, it's like a diary or record of daily happenings (not those stupid ones though) that may come to use for investigation if i go missing or anything happens to me. what an idiot. i'm paranoid enough without watching all those tvb serials. it's making me even more neurotic. whatever. fantasia's sales numbers beat diana again. what's the surprise? i wasn't even that sure that clay's sales could beat ruben, although i was quite sure that those who had voted for ruben won't be spending actual money to buy his album. i mean, clay's album wan't totally well produces or what, but ruben's is even worse. what on earth are those songs? gross... at least clay's songs had catchy tunes... ok, there i go again. constantly thinking people are belittling clay, and that it's going to be necessary for me to defend clay. what am i thinking? oh dear... i keep watching the jimmy kimmel clip with clay. so funny! clay is so witty and animated, and kimmel is humorous too. i'm glad they're on good terms with each other (at least that's how it seems) rather than insulting. the interview (part 1) is tolttaly hilarious. i siple adore the part where clay talked about his vacation to ireland. nasty little animals... walking around on the plate... hit me with his cane... my keys went to hong kong... haha it's all so funny and entertaining. you can see that clay is entertaining the audience more often than kimmel is, cos he isn't contributing much jokes. but credit still goes to him (some) for prompting clay to talk. i like that clip... i've got tuition this afternoon (or should i say evening?). not sean. it's this sec 1 kid in bishan. dammit. it's so far... mom just agreed wanping on my behalf, then proceeded to the arrangements (or lack thereof) for me to teach tuition (chinese! how long have i not touch that? hello?!?!) at bishan (do you have ay idea how far it is from here? no less than 16 stops! urgh...). i know the money is good, but i have no confidence to teach that subject at all. how can you expect me to do it??? horrible horrible... i only studied chinese up to seconary school. i haven't touched it for almost 5 years (unless you wanna count the times when i teach sean. that's primary 1 and 2 chinese, by the way). how how how?!?!!? somebody save me... it's so far, what am i gonna do?? by the way, it's 231 i think, bishan st 23. gosh... bishan! that's one hour plus on transport! @#$%&*()(*&^%$#@#$%^&*)*&^%$# mom's eye seem to be imrpoving. i believe it is. she used to see just black lines (veins, we suspect, if not confirmed) but now it's white and bright. i think that's correct. i mean, i heard that the eyes would be very sensitive to light after the operation. so i guess... i hope.. it's ok... she needs to have confidence, she can't panic and worry too much. i don't want her to feel upset or depressed. i keep encouraging her, keep reminding her to have faith. i keep telling her not to worry, but how can i say that when i myself am very worried too? sigh... i just hope that she recovers soon... alright. i shall just be good and stop complaining about tuition. i had to teach that horrible girl pri 4 chinese that time. it was my first tuition session too. and though the first lesson was not productive at all, she managed to improve over time and her mom was pleased. i just hope i won't face those horrible chinese questions where even i don't know. i mean, yeah, i didn't offer to teach tuition so it's logically alright if i don't match up to the level of success at tutoring as the previous tutor. but still, i don't wanna make a fool out of myself. nobody likes that... i've been fine with tuition... ok. let's face it. i did get fired didn't i? malinda's dad... i thought she was really good enough if she worked hard. maybe i wasn't teaching right. or maybe tuition is just not right for her. i'm just glad sean's mummy is still relatively satisfied with me. i love giving him tuition. it makes me furious sometimes, but many others i'm quite happy. guess it's got to do with the kids... they're so adorable, and so innocent. and the parent is not at home to give my pressure. that's... good... better... ok, whatever it is, the money is good. let's just get this over and done with for the money. just for the sake. of. the. money. bye bye posted by Yee 12:40 PM . . .
