i'm in a bad mood these two days... clashed with mom this afternoon, i was so upset i just hid in the toilet and ignored her. but i'm fine in a while, talked to her again like nithing happened, went out and bought stuff... which i like, actually. i know i flare up easily, but i cool down pretty fast too. well at least i think it makes me a happier person for a larger proportion of my time. or, so i think. i dunno... mom's in a bad mood too. what do you think if we're being threatened by our own relative? leech... trying to live off others. we're not filthy rich, we don't have that much money to share. and all my uncles have their own families to support, with at least 3 kids, all of whom are to go to university, WHICH by the way isn't cheap. i'm still in debt, about 10K by now i think. no matter how i scrimp i'll never be able to pay it man... i'll have to borrow from mom and dad first, then pay off my debt (this time to them) as i work. oh man... poor twa kiu, always having to deal with so many matters... how down on luck can someone be? well at least he'll be happy seeing anita graduate... but all that other stuff... how can one person deal with so much - alone? he never talks about his troubles with his family it seems. he's the one with the most white hair, if not the same as mom. the two of them like to keep problems to themselves all the time. it really worries me. how can people fret over so many things alone without getting others to share the worry? i can't, i'd break down. either that, or i'll get violent. oh well, the better choice is obvious eh... well, i gotta go sleep. so so tired. finally settled huiboon and cindy's presents. bleah... i know i kept calling them, but too bad, it's because none of you were able to go with me and help with the decision making. and you all will make noise and complain if i get something you all disagree on. so, i don't have a choice. don't blame me. and i'm tired. goodnight. posted by Yee 12:47 AM . . .
